TOTALLY PISSED OFF

After a nightmare six weeks in hospital its a little hard to get back into the real world. Everything is too fast and too loud. I am also 19kg lighter which means  I have nothing that fits me properly. So it seems I am destined to become a recluse because people and clothes are proving to be a problem!

On a more serious note, I am healing well but as I had stomach surgery, eating is still a problem. When this period is over I don't want to see soup for a very long time. There are only so many ways you can make soup appetising, and its getting to the point where I may as well just eat the sour cream instead of the soup I'm adding it to. Don't suggest a different soup. I am over soup in all forms especially since the Australian summer has officially begun.

In my last post I wrote "eternally confused as to why I always need to be the one who does things the hardest way possible". This is still fresh in my mind as the husband and I deal with the next incident on our return home. What should have been so simple (the simple act of returning home after a long absence) has turned into a nightmare. In our absence, a pipe has burst in our bathroom and has ruined most of our bathroom, bedroom, passageway and a piece of furniture.It is quite simply unbelievable. Hollywood script writers would love my life! They would never run out of ideas.

So much has gone wrong in the last few weeks and I didn't let anything beat me. But I feel quite beaten when I look at the damage in my house. This is especially so in my bedroom which is really my happy place. I actually feel sorry for myself and I feel angry. After such a traumatic time away the husband and I deserve better. We do not deserve to come home and have to deal with this.

I always tell my kids that someone is doing it worse regardless of what has happened. I tell them that they can sook for 24 hours and that after that they need to pull their socks up and move on. Usually this advice works well for them and for me, but not today. 24 hours has passed and I am still angry, fuming, full of pity and totally pissed off. Can't help it!

Everybody jokes that I have upset a Chinaman. I'm not sure where that saying has come from but I think I have upset a whole country of Chinamen. For the record here is my official apology to the Chinamen:

Dear Chinamen, whatever I did I am sorry. You may wish to tell me sometime what I did that was so bad, because I feel I have been sufficiently punished. Let me refresh your memory from the last few years - rare disease diagnosis, two lots of cancer, career down the plug hole, daughter diagnosed with very dangerous condition, daughter diagnosed with same rare disease, bank balance in tears, hole in stomach, pneumonia and pleurisy AND NOW  a water logged house!!!

I AM SORRY - PLEASE LEAVE ME AND MY FAMILY ALONE NOW.

If anyone is looking for me I am at home sulking and airing my smelly house.

Till next time...xxx

ST



PS While I was in the hospital CHRONICLES OF A LUMPY PERSON turned 2!!! We will celebrate another time xxx