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Showing posts with label God's hands. Show all posts
Showing posts with label God's hands. Show all posts

Wednesday 15 April 2015

A COW AND A CALF

I am publishing the following with my daughter's permission. It is her decision to share this news and she has not been coerced by me in any way. My daughter is 21 and has an intelligent, strong mind of her own.

As many of my family and close friends know, back in January I got tested for Cowden syndrome. Cowden syndrome means that I am prone to getting lumps and am at a higher risk of getting cancer. It is also known to be the cause of AVM's to grow so fast (as demonstrated by the AVM that was growing in my brain.) 1 in 200,000 people suffer from this syndrome in the world. 2 of them in WA.
Yesterday I was the 3rd person to be diagnosed in WA with the condition. This now explains the reason behind my brain problems. Am I happy that I have been diagnosed with this condition? No not at all. But it's now nice to finally have an answer as to why I have been so ill for these past two years.

Cowden's is not curable. It is something that has been with me since birth. Why am I writing this on here? Because I want people to know that I'm ok. There's is no label stuck to my head that says that I have Cowden syndrome. I am going to live life to the best of my ability, as I have done so for the last 21 years. Thank you to my parents, sister, extended family and close friends for their love and support over the last few days. I will continue to ride this crazy train that we call life, to the best of my ability xx Ashton

Of course as her parents, Mark and I are shattered because we held on to a sliver of hope that the result would be negative. However realistically we are not surprised, the evidence has been mounting for some time.

There are some differences to my diagnosis and my daughter's diagnosis. I was 44 when diagnosed. She is 21. I spent a long time wondering why things were happening to me and wondering why I was different. She is diagnosed at a young age. She knows what the problem is and I can not begin to explain the relief this brings. It sounds ridiculous to use the word relief but not knowing hurts and drives you crazy. When you know, you can plan and be pro-active. Also, the doctors take you more seriously.

In the 5 years since my diagnosis the genetics field has literally exploded. There are things I know now that I didn't know 5 years ago. There are discoveries being made all the time. It is quite possible that within Ashton's lifetime there will be a way to manage this situation, this genetic condition, better.

Yesterday, Ashton joined the online support group COWDENS SYNDROME AUSTRALIA. Again it was her decision. She was welcomed into a warm, protective environment and promised support by most of the other 35 members in this country that also have this condition. She was overwhelmed by their kindness and offers ofhelp.

Most importantly, Ashton has me. This is not a condition that is unfamiliar to her as she has seen me live with it for a while now. I'd like to think that will in some way help.

I've often said that our life is in God's hands. I firmly believe there is a reason for all this and that HE knows what is best for us. My diagnosis and my various conditions have brought out qualities in me I never knew I had. I'm sure the same will happen for Ashton. Everything certainly happens for a reason.

Thank you for continuing to follow OUR story. I still can not get my head around the fact that when I started this blog, it was about me and my journey. I never, ever in a million years expected this twist to occur.

It helps so much to share the story. Please understand this is therapy for me and will continue, with my daughter's permission when necessary. I respect the fact she is an adult, at all times. I am also aware of the impact on my other daughter and husband and word my phrases carefully.

Please continue to pray for us. 1 in 200,000 and we have been struck twice.

Heads up and best foot forward.

Till next time...xxx




Monday 2 February 2015

4 DAYS TO GO

OK...FOUR DAYS TO GO!!!

This Friday Ashton is back in surgery for work on the fistula in her neck. It's been a long three weeks waiting for this procedure and we are almost there. As she says its nerve wracking but we are so close now, we're keeping it all together.

Well, I'm drumming up support worldwide. Prayers have started everywhere and I'm hoping for the same feeling I've had before, of a world wide circle of prayer around her. After that as I said on Facebook and many times before, it's in God's hands.

Oh by the way... I tweeted the Pope. Yes he has a Twitter name @ pontifex, so I tweeted him and asked him to pray for my daughter. Will be over the moon if I get a reply.

The husband gets here in three days and then we are ready for the warrior support Ashton needs. I can't wait till he gets here. I really need him by my side. Ciara is working during the surgery. It's her way of keeping busy because waiting does do your head in.

Meanwhile, the book is going well and after this Friday I will finish it. It's rather surreal to revisit some of the last few months but also uplifting when I see the progress that has been made. Regardless  of whether I publish it or not, it's kept me busy and focused.

I may post quite a bit in the next couple of weeks. Hope you don't mind! I need to keep my anxiety levels down and writing is my way.

If you want to leave words of encouragement for my brave 20 year old, feel free and I will make sure she sees them. 25 days till her 21 st birthday and God willing all will be so much better by then .



Till next time...xxx





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